Sunday, July 24, 2016

cyber bullying (an essay i wrote in high school)

   "you're ugly." "you don't deserve to be alive." "no one likes you." someone comes home from school to these hateful messages, everyday, repeatedly, and they fall into depression. they have low self-esteem and start self-harming. then one day, when it all feels like too much, they take their life away to escape. their parents come home only to find out that their child has hung themselves because of some anonymous bully that had the audacity to say such horrible things. that person's little sister doesn't understand what happened to their older sibling- that they were cyber bullied into taking their own life. cyber bullying should not exist but people do it because it's easy and because they don't think about all the negative effects it could have on others.

   many people engage in cyber bulling and they get away with it. some reasons that people do it are because of unpleasant home environments, exposure to drugs or alcohol, rejection among peers, or even because of media violence: television, video games, or movies. in a Teen Online & Wireless Safety Survey on cyber bullying, 11% of cyber bullies said that they do it just to show off, 14% do it to be mean, 21% to embarrass someone, 28% for fun, 58% to get back at someone or because someone 'deserved it', and 16% for other reasons. over half of teens have been cyber bullied and about the same amount have cyber bullied. what kind of person thinks that they have the right to say anything that would make someone think about taking their own life away? too many people don't do anything about it, when it's happening to them or when they see it happen to someone else. that causes cyber bullies to think that they can say whatever they want and get away with it.

   it's easier to bully people online using electronic devices. even though bullying isn't new, there is more advanced technology now and people are able to bully without being face to face; they can hide behind a screen and/or be anonymous. cyber bullying is when someone is intimidating, harassing, or targeting someone else online, through the Internet or other electronic devices. with everyone today using technology, cyber bullying can range from posting embarrassing pictures of someone, websites/blogs that make fun of people, chat rooms, texts, emails, instants messaging, or even video chatting. people can be anonymous and not show their names or faces, and a lot of them get away with it. cyber bullying can follow people from school or work to home because cyberspace is everywhere. 

   people don't realize all of the effects of cyber bullying when they do it to others. they don't always realize that it can be psychologically detrimental or that it's wrong and causes negativity in peoples' lives. they don't realize that it can lead to depression, anxiety, and sometimes, even suicide. that's what happened to Megan Meier, age 12 when she resorted to suicide. she was just a normal girl on myspace who had a guy named 'Josh Evans' flirting with her until he started sending her mean messages instead. the last message she got from him before hanging herself was, "the world would be a better place without you." Josh Evans was not a real teenage boy, but rather a profile created by a woman named Lori Drew. Lori was the mom of one of Megan's classmates that she had fallen out with. now, a lot of cities in Missouri (where Megan Meier lived) put local ordinances in place that prohibit cyber bullying.

   cyber bullying is an easier and more accessible form of bullying that people think they can get away with, even if it hurts others emotionally and mentally. the victims of cyber bullying don't speak up most of the time and the people who witness cyber bullying don't always report it. cyber bullying needs to be spoken about, needs to be reported, needs to be warned about because it is way too easy to hurt others and ruin their lives with just a keyboard and a screen. 

Thursday, July 21, 2016

book recommendation: milk and honey- rupi kaur

hello lovelies! i've finally gotten my hands on this book recently (as in, it was delivered just today) & i finished reading it in less than an hour & i want to tell you guys about it! 

this book, milk and honey by rupi kaur, is a collection of prose & poems & snippets of writing. there are ideas of feminism, love, pain, rape, consent, loss, abuse, father-daughter relationships, break-ups, sex, & healing. there are so many pieces of writing in this book that i can relate to & i feel as if rupi kaur is reading my mind & looking into my heart. the pages may range from containing 2 lines to 9 paragraphs but every single word that she writes hits my soul.

the book is split into 4 chapters:
  1. the hurting
  2. the loving
  3. the breaking
  4. the healing
each chapter is as thoughtful & brilliant as the last. i would 10/10 recommend it to anyone who feels too much, who hurts too much, & who loves too much. to those that haven't read it, go read it! to those that have, how was it? did you love it as much as i did? 

Friday, July 15, 2016

I'M GETTING OLD | 19 things i've learned in 19 years!

hey guys, guess what? i'm 19 now. yeah, 19. my last year of being in the -teens. instead of a birthday vlog, i decided to teach you guys 19 things that i've learned in my 19 years of living, free of charge.
what i've learned (pretty self-explanatory but watch the video for explanation + more talking):
1. people come & go & there's nothing you can do about it
2. people change people
3. there's no one-size-fits-all approach
4. forgive forgive forgive
5. it's okay to be emotional
6. be present
7. it's okay to not be okay
8. love w all of your heart
9. sometimes the people closest to you will hurt you
10. do you
11. take many many many pictures & videos
12. be kind
13. ask for help when you need it
14. you can say no
15. just do it
16. time flies
17. your age does not correlate w maturity
18. actions speak louder than intentions
19. love yourself

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Koala(ty) kolaches @ Koala Kolaches

today, i went to Koala Kolaches for the first time. it's a little shop but it's super cute & the lady that served us was so warm & pleasant that she made it a fun experience the second we stepped in.

i went w Allison, Paul, my brother, & my sister. Allison told the lady that it was my birthday, so she told me to pick an ice cream flavor, a topping, & she would make it special for me. 

i chose cookies 'n cream ice cream w oreos & she said that that was boring so she added some fruity pebbles along w the oreo toppings for me:

 brenda got a strawberry ice cream kolache w gummy bears:

after our kolaches, the lady brought out some cinnamon sugar donut holes (?) w chocolate inside of them, saying that it's a thing she does for first time customers. then on top of that, she brought me a paper bag that said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Love, Koala" w a free regular kolache. 

i gotta say, it was a pretty great experience, no complaints whatsoever & i got a free kolache on top of that. i would definitely say that Koala Kolache has has koala-ty food & service. :) #koalakolache #koalakakes #leavehappier

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

"You think it’s cool to hate things. And it’s not. It’s boring. 
Talk about what you love and keep quiet about what you don’t."

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Thursday, July 7, 2016

Calvert Adventures w Christy & Kelly | Summer 2016

just a little YouTube rant

recently, i was in MD visiting my family. my cousin, Christy, started YouTubing recently & i think she's done very well for someone who's just starting their own channel. her father asked me why don't i make videos. i do. my grandma told me that Christy makes videos. i know. Christy, Dalena, & i used to make YouTube videos together on a channel called cherryblossoms4444. that channel is long gone, & at some point, i created my own channel- eveepink1. my oldest video on my channel is from 6 years ago, meaning i've been doing YouTube for more than 6 years. 

i guess i never really felt the need for my family to see my videos bc it might be a little bit weird, but now, i feel under acknowledged. i make videos for fun, not for money. i make them mostly for me, so i can look back on my vlogs, my trips, my life. but hearing my family act like Christy's doing something so cool even though i've been doing it for years just makes me feel blah. & then the kind of feedback i hear from my friends & family, even if they're just joking, hurts. 

"these videos are so boring." 
"why would i watch your ugly vlogs?" 
"this is so low quality." 
"i don't like vlogs."
"hurry up & upload your video, you take forever."

my videos are sometimes shot w my sucky iphone 5 or w my nikon. my phone is just more convenient & less heavy. i don't have time for a professional set-up w a tripod & perfect focus on me.  i don't have some fancy & professional software or program to edit w- i use movie maker. i do my best w what i have. my videos are mostly vlogs bc i want to keep track of my life. i don't do many "professional YouTube videos" bc i don't like sitting in front of the camera, talking about certain mainstream & popular topics, or anything like that. my videos are like montages & collections of bits & pieces of things that i've recorded. that's how i do my videos. & who are you to judge the kind of videos i make? or to judge the quality of my videos? i see people on YouTube who upload videos months later bc they're too lazy to edit, or don't edit at all- they just put up a whole one shot video. 

me, i edit ASAP. right after i got back from myrtle beach, i stayed up until 4 AM editing & uploaded the Punk Challenge video that i promised to upload once i was back. i edited 5 videos/days/parts of my myrtle beach vlogs in 2 days. i edit fast, i edit right away, i get things up as soon as possible. my week vlogs are from sunday to saturday & i usually upload them around 1-4 AM after saturday ends/ sunday starts. most people do NOT do this. i put so much time & dedication & commitment into my YouTube just to feel bad about myself when i see better editing software, better lighting, better set up, better video topics, more subscribers, more views, etc. 

i never cared about this stuff until people started getting on my back about my videos. i just want to do things the way i want to do them. i do not need to get dressed up & look nice for my videos, i do not need to do any fancy set up & find better lighting & sound & whatever. i do not need to have the highest quality video. i do not need to watch the top YouTube videos to think of video topics that will get the most views. i do not need to upload on certain days. i do not need to do anything. trying to do all of these things will burn me out. i upload a lot & fast bc it's something i love to do. editing & uploading started warping into something that makes me feel unsuccessful & like a failure bc of people who keep trying to make my channel into something it's not. it's never gonna be a professional type of channel bc that's not who i am. it takes all of the fun & love out of making videos. 

all i have left to say is if you think my videos are boring, or don't like the videos that i make, DON'T WATCH. i honestly could care less. YouTube is my fun little outlet & i've been in love w editing since middle school. i refuse to let anyone take that away from me. so if you don't have anything positive or helpful to say, don't say it at all, don't watch me at all, just don't.

but for those of you who DO watch my videos & give positive feedback & comments & support, thank you so much. you do not know how much i appreciate it. every nice comment i get on my videos makes my day. i hope my subscribers will continue to watch my videos & enjoy them. i love you guys. i'll see ya when i see ya. 

Friday, July 1, 2016

a trip in a trip

in my last post, i told ya'll that i was going to MD. well, i spent a few days in Maryland before the parents decided we were going to go to South Carolina too, for Myrtle Beach. at first i was reluctant to go, but i am absolutely in love w beaches so my attitude towards the trip changed completely.

we stayed in a place called the Crown Reef Resort & Waterpark- the rooms had a great beach view. we went swimming in the beach everyday of course, but we also visited a few other places near Myrtle beach. one of them was called Broadway at the beach:

we also went to see a Cirque Extreme show at the Palace Theatre which is also located at Broadway at the beach. we weren't allowed to take pictures of the show but it was amazing & gave me multiple heart attacks:

afterwards, we went back to the main Broadway at the beach & saw fireworks:

near the end of the trip, my cousins (Christy & Tommy), my brother (Long), & i decided to take late night beach walks & we had a little photoshoot:

on the last day of the trip, we went to the Hollywood Wax Museum:

there are 3 parts to the museum- the wax figures, zombie outbreak, & a mirror maze. we went through all 3- the zombie outbreak was terrifying to me. after that, we went to the boardwalk on the beach & swam for the last time before the trip was over.

yesterday, we woke up at 7 AM & got packed up & left the resort. after an 8 hour car ride (w added hours bc we stopped at Potomac Mills mall), we finally got back to Christy's house & got some sleep. now it's morning & here i am, finishing up this post. 

just a couple more days until my MD trip is over too :(

Punk Challenge ft. Christy Creme

watch my video where christy turns me punk:

watch christy's video where i turn her punk: